Hey everyone! Happy holidays. I wanted to write a little bit about forgiveness. This is something that I struggle with. A LOT. I know some people probably have the same issue as well. Every now and then while I am cooking, watching a movie or mostly driving, my mind always travels back to a few years ago. I find myself getting so angry at what I allowed myself to go threw. I get mad at mainly at the person who did me wrong. This person has been out of my life for quite some time now. As soon as I think I can get over it. BAM! My mind goes back. I don’t get sad, just flat out pissed! Why can’t I get over that? Why can’t I allow myself to be free of those thoughts? It’s done, it’s over , and I’m free! Why haven’t I been able to forgive? I would really love to forgive and completely forget. I am very happy now. Any thoughts? Comments? Help!
You Don’t Know Me!
This is a rant that I should have posted months ago! Like eight months ago! So here goes!
Okay so my kids ,mom, and I were coming back from California. We had just left from a wonderful vacation at Disneyland. We were waiting in the passenger pick up lane and we walked past an older lady who was maybe in her 50’s or 60’s. She tells me that my children are pretty, proceeds to ask me “Are ALL those yours?” followed with a “Hmm you’ve been busy” comment..
I didn’t have anything to say to this lady but “Yes ma’am” and “Thank you”. Later on I thought about that short conversation that I had with her and I started to get angry. Have you ever had a conversation with someone and they call themselves saying something dumb or out of the way to you or about and you don’t have a comeback until later on when it doesn’t even matter? Well this is how I felt. I felt this way because she didn’t even know anything about me and here she was judging me. Maybe it’s just me. Sometimes I know that I can be really sensitive but this time I don’t think I was overreacting.
I thought about what I would have said to her. I replayed the conversation in my head. I wanted to tell her, “Yes I’ve been busy, yes ALL those are mine, BUT I was also married when I had my kids and NOW my husband is deceased”. Let’s not get it twisted!I wasn’t just running around getting knocked up by whoever. Why are people so quick to judged another? I’m pretty sure she is in no way, shape, or form perfect. No one is! Even still she shouldn’t have been judging me! She is not God! She did not know my story or my situation.
People need not to be so judgemental. You never know what the next person has been through. What if the one horrible thing you say to a person is the last thing that they ever hear? That’s all for my rant everyone. See you in the next blog.
The Toni Wig Pt. 2
I absolutely love this wig! I got it from Tonidaley.com in the color 1b. I have gotten so many compliments on this hair! It blends in well with my natural hair. If you don’t have one get one. It comes in different colors!
Jamaica Again? Why Yes!
Let me start off by saying I absolutely loooove this resort! It is my favorite place to be in the world! That will never change. I can’t wait to go back!
Now about check in, it was smooth and great until we went to the concierge table and the lady who gave us our coupons made a remark about my name being hyphenated.What was the point of that? Really made me feel uncomfortable and a little angry. We stayed in room 3418 on the 4th floor. I really didn’t care too much for the view and it kind of of put a damper on the trip just a little. I love to have a great view of the Caribbean sea and the sunset. Also one of the highlights of my trip is watching the huge cruise ship sail off into the sunset! This time however I had to leave the room and go downstairs to get a view of the sunset. Sorry I’m spoiled! Next time I have to be sure to ask for a room with an excellent view. The room was comfy as usual. Love the bed it’s like sleeping on a cloud!
First night there we went to Blue Mountain which is the Jamaican restaurant. Loved it here. Our server Joven was wonderful! So nice and polite. I had the curry coat for the first time. It was really good! Loved the Italian restaurant as well. I absolutely love, I mean LOVE Lamar! He is so nice. He makes you feel like royalty! He is kind and polite. I will most definitely ask for him next time for sure. Food at the Italian restaurant is excellent as always. He was my server last year as well. Osane was our chef at Himitsu which was the Asian restaurant. He was my chef last year as well. I like him he is funny. Love the food there too.
Drinks are always yummy no matter what you get (My Opinion). Be sure to get a Wild Orchid, a Bob Marley, and a dirty banana.Oh and a chocolate martini!
Went to the beach and we never really had a hard time finding seats, no matter what time we went. Pool area was always kept clean, the beach area as well. Be sure to get some jerk chicken if you see the cart. You won’t be disappointed.
Let’s get to the turndown service. My maid which was my made last year was Josephine. Love her. She is so nice and friendly. Sadly I only got to see her two nights because she left for vacation. Hope to see her next time.
Another issue I had was I was in the bed in the afternoon trying to take a nap and whoever was retrieving the dishes slammed the secrets box. LOUD. I don’t know if they were having a bad day or what, but it really disturbed our nap.
Nightly entertainment is great as always! The Secrets Entertainment team really works hard and does a good job at making us laugh and keeping us entertained. Shout out to Happy Feet! I always can’t get enough of Pace the Secrets house band! Love them! The lady I don’t know her name (although I should, I have been four times now) has a lovely voice, so serenading.
I also want to shout out Hopeton! He never forgets who I am and always asks about my mother and how she is doing.
Overall I had a really nice time as I always do! It’s my second home! I hope to be back next year! Until next time!!
That Five Year Mark
Five years ago today, I was at work, having a regular day. I see an officer come through and he comes up to me and ask am I Alicia Moore? I thought to myself “Oh crap what did I do? I did nothing wrong?” Then he told me my husband had been in an accident and I needed to come with him. All these thoughts ran through my head as I grabbed my purse and proceeded to tell my boss that I need to leave. Everything happened so fast and I remember my coworkers staring at me as I gathered my things. I will never forget this day and the events that followed. I dread this month every year. Pray for me this month y’all. Pray for his family and coworkers too.